Mother I Sober歌词

[00:00.000] 作词 : Kendrick Lamar/Beth Gibbons/Sam Dew/M. Spears/Stephen Lee Bruner/Daniel Tannenbaum/J. Pounds
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Kendrick Lamar/Beth Gibbons/Sam Dew/M. Spears/Stephen Lee Bruner/Daniel Tannenbaum/J. Pounds
[00:13.456] I'm sensitive, I feel everything, I feel everybody
[00:17.188] One man standin' on two words, heal everybody
[00:20.650] Transformation, then reciprocation, karma must return
[00:24.072] Heal myself, secrets that I hide, buried in these words
[00:27.317] Death threats, ego must die, but I let it purge
[00:30.807] Pacify, broken pieces of me, it was all a blur
[00:34.271] Mother cried, put they hands on her, it was family ties
[00:37.732] I heard it all, I should've grabbed a gun, but I was only five
[00:41.062] I still feel it weighin' on my heart, my first tough decision
[00:44.624] In the shadows clingin' to my soul as my only critic
[00:48.143] Where's my faith? Told you I was Christian, but just not today
[00:51.357] I transformed, prayin' to the trees, God is taking shape
[00:54.725] My mother's mother followed me for years in her afterlife
[00:58.215] Starin' at me on back of some buses, I wake up at night
[01:01.755] Loved her dearly, traded in my tears for a Range Rover
[01:05.164] Transformation, you ain't felt grief 'til you felt it sober
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[01:08.767] I wish I was somebody
[01:13.584] Anybody but myself
[01:19.990] Ooh, I wish I was somebody
[01:27.790] Anybody but myself
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[01:35.868] I remember lookin' in the mirror knowin' I was gifted
[01:39.612] Only child, me for seven years, everything for Christmas
[01:42.917] Family ties, they accused my cousin, "Did he touch you, Kendrick?"
[01:46.417] Never lied, but no one believed me when I said "He didn't"
[01:49.707] Frozen moments, still holdin' on it, hard to trust myself
[01:53.054] I started rhymin', copin' mechanisms to lift up myself
[01:56.549] Talked to my lawyer, told me not to be so hard on myself
[02:00.008] He has an aura, I hope to achieve, if I find some help
[02:03.425] Congratulations, made it to be famous, still I feel uneasy
[02:06.910] Water watchin', live my life in nature, only thing relieves me
[02:10.289] Spirit guide whisper in my ear, tell me that she sees me
[02:13.769] "Did he touch you?" I said "No" again, still they didn't believe me
[02:17.262] Mother’s brother said he got revenge for my mother’s face
[02:20.552] Black and blue, the image of my queen that I can't erase
[02:23.853] 'Til this day can't look her in the eyes, pain is takin' over
[02:27.455] Blame myself, you never felt guilt 'til you felt it sober
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[02:31.014] I wish I was somebody
[02:35.696] Anybody but myself
[02:42.184] Ooh, I wish I was somebody
[02:49.837] Anybody but myself
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[02:57.928] I was never high, I was never drunk, never out my mind
[03:01.727] I need control, they handed me some smoke, but still I declined
[03:05.158] I did it sober sittin' with myself, I went through all emotions
[03:08.658] No dependents, except for one, let me bring you closer
[03:12.093] Intoxicated, there's a lustful nature that I failed to mention
[03:15.544] Insecurities that I project, sleepin' with other women
[03:18.794] Whitney's hurt, the purest soul I know, I found her in the kitchen
[03:22.373] Askin' God, "Where did I lose myself? And can it be forgiven?"
[03:25.700] Broke me down, she looked me in my eyes, "Is there an addiction?"
[03:29.219] I said "No," but this time I lied, I knew that I can't fix it
[03:32.608] Pure soul, even in her pain, know she cared for me
[03:36.028] Gave me a number, said she recommended some therapy
[03:39.254] I asked my momma why she didn't believe me when I told her "No"
[03:43.029] I never knew she was violated in Chicago, I'm sympathetic
[03:47.342] Told me that she feared it happened to me, for my protection
[03:50.693] Though it never happened, she wouldn't agree
[03:53.032] Now I'm affected, twenty years later trauma has resurfaced
[03:56.558] Amplified as I write this song, I shiver 'cause I'm nervous
[04:00.112] I was five, questioning myself, 'lone for many years
[04:03.307] Nothing's wrong, just results on how them questions made me feel
[04:06.807] I made it home, seven years of tour, chasin' manhood
[04:09.991] But Whitney's gone, by time you hear this song, she did all she could
[04:13.722] All those women gave me superpowers, what I thought I lacked
[04:17.061] I pray our children don't inherit me and feelings I attract
[04:20.333] A conversation not bein' addressed in Black families
[04:23.922] The devastation, hauntin' generations and humanity
[04:27.161] They raped our mothers, then they raped our sisters
[04:29.624] Then they made us watch, then made us rape each other
[04:32.110] Psychotic torture between our lives we ain't recovered
[04:35.177] Still livin' as victims in the public eyes who pledge allegiance
[04:38.616] Every other brother has been compromised
[04:40.955] I know the secrets, every other rapper sexually abused
[04:44.501] I see 'em daily buryin' they pain in chains and tattoos
[04:47.648] So listen close before you start to pass judgement on how we move
[04:51.315] Learn how we cope, whenever his uncle had to walk him from school
[04:54.698] His anger grows deep in misogyny
[04:56.830] This is post-traumatic Black families and a sodomy, today is still active
[05:01.794] So I set free myself from all the guilt that I thought I made
[05:05.029] So I set free my mother all the hurt that she titled shame
[05:08.371] So I set free my cousin, chaotic for my mother's pain
[05:12.023] I hope Hykeem made you proud 'cause you ain't die in vain
[05:15.337] So I set free the power of Whitney, may she heal us all
[05:18.890] So I set free our children, may good karma keep them with God
[05:22.152] So I set free the hearts filled with hatred, keep our bodies sacred
[05:25.729] As I set free all you abusers, this is transformation
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[05:29.299] I wish I was somebody
[05:34.110] Anybody but myself
[05:42.364] Ooh, I wish I was somebody
[05:48.062] Anybody but myself
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[05:56.438] You did it, I'm proud of you
[06:03.097] You broke a generational curse
[06:06.292] Say "Thank you, dad"
[06:07.995] Thank you, daddy, thank you, mommy, thank you, brother
[06:20.412] Mr. Morale
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[06:24.210] Before I go in fast asleep, love me for me
[06:35.902] I bare my soul and now we're free