Constant Conflicts
I spent too much time erasing, not enough time changing
Blurring the lines between sick and selfish
Hoping I can grab on for just a second
But I've learned to take what I can get
And relent only when I meet my own death
And find a pace I can circumvent
When was truth less about proving a point and just proving someone wrong
All along I'll rest my aching joints to my own broken hope and swan song
But maybe I'm over worked
because I like breaking the healing process as a comfort
when I'm aching
With this new perspective I'm finally taking
I made this bed and I will sleep in it
The comfort of your warm sheets will bring me to the further flames of hell
I made this bed and I will sleep in it
Even if our honesty is building peace into a bed of nails
Death is not a choice and love should not be either
I'll endure the pain if our hearts endure the weather
The only pain worse than killing with force is killing with neglect I guess
And now I know that our love was completely dead
I will complicate this love just to feel something
And I'm sorry if it's clouded all the facts
The rhythm of my heartbeat change in the moment that
I realized you are not coming back
I will complicate this love just to feel something
And I'm sorry if it's clouded all the facts
The rhythm of my heartbeat change in the moment that
I conceptualize the words I masked
I made this bed and I will sleep in it
The comfort of your warm sheets will bring me to the further flames
I will give up all I have just to go back home
I'm trapped in bread crumbs (???)
I hope you know I hate being alone
You used to make my mind clear
Now your absence does instead
I heard your dog barking in the backyard
He only does that when you're home
And I just hope you understand
I never meant to grow apart
But I know at some point I had to grow
I guess I could've picked a better time to learn patience
But now I'm learning that I am becoming the one who broke my heart
I was a creature of habit but with no real intentions
I conformed to what I understood to be happiness
Or undiagnosed telf medicated
approach to getting lost in each other's contemptment
lead to a misconception of your beauty
I still can't believe that I lied to you
Especially because when I said it, I thought I was telling the truth
I thought I was strong enough to carry you but now my mind is clear
And I hope you hear this
I love you
Constant ConflictsLRC歌词
[00:36.78]I spent too much time erasing, not enough time changing
[00:40.87]Blurring the lines between sick and selfish
[00:43.62]Hoping I can grab on for just a second
[00:46.30]But I've learned to take what I can get
[00:48.69]And relent only when I meet my own death
[00:53.05]And find a pace I can circumvent
[00:55.17]When was truth less about proving a point and just proving someone wrong
[00:59.22]All along I'll rest my aching joints to my own broken hope and swan song
[01:04.28]But maybe I'm over worked
[01:06.25]because I like breaking the healing process as a comfort
[01:09.04]when I'm aching
[01:10.20]With this new perspective I'm finally taking
[01:16.05]I made this bed and I will sleep in it
[01:19.99]The comfort of your warm sheets will bring me to the further flames of hell
[01:26.20]I made this bed and I will sleep in it
[01:30.92]Even if our honesty is building peace into a bed of nails
[01:38.95]Death is not a choice and love should not be either
[01:44.42]I'll endure the pain if our hearts endure the weather
[01:49.56]The only pain worse than killing with force is killing with neglect I guess
[01:53.96]And now I know that our love was completely dead
[02:00.14]I will complicate this love just to feel something
[02:03.49]And I'm sorry if it's clouded all the facts
[02:06.07]The rhythm of my heartbeat change in the moment that
[02:08.95]I realized you are not coming back
[02:11.18]I will complicate this love just to feel something
[02:14.07]And I'm sorry if it's clouded all the facts
[02:17.05]The rhythm of my heartbeat change in the moment that
[02:19.79] I conceptualize the words I masked
[02:25.06]I made this bed and I will sleep in it
[02:29.47]The comfort of your warm sheets will bring me to the further flames
[02:34.72]I will give up all I have just to go back home
[02:39.99]I'm trapped in bread crumbs (???)
[02:42.72]I hope you know I hate being alone
[02:48.31]You used to make my mind clear
[02:51.28]Now your absence does instead
[02:54.62]I heard your dog barking in the backyard
[02:57.81]He only does that when you're home
[03:00.07]And I just hope you understand
[03:02.21]I never meant to grow apart
[03:04.23]But I know at some point I had to grow
[03:07.10]I guess I could've picked a better time to learn patience
[03:09.79]But now I'm learning that I am becoming the one who broke my heart
[03:14.79]I was a creature of habit but with no real intentions
[03:18.74]I conformed to what I understood to be happiness
[03:21.48]Or undiagnosed telf medicated
[03:24.09]approach to getting lost in each other's contemptment
[03:26.52]lead to a misconception of your beauty
[03:29.96]I still can't believe that I lied to you
[03:33.31]Especially because when I said it, I thought I was telling the truth
[03:38.41]I thought I was strong enough to carry you but now my mind is clear
[03:44.93]And I hope you hear this
[03:46.24]I love you
