Survivor's Guilt歌词

[00:00.000] 作词 : Dave/Jorja Smith
[00:00.205] 作曲 : Dave/Jorja Smith
[00:00.411]Fall too far to be wise and I know that I try but I-
[00:05.942]Fall too far to be wise and I know that I try but I-
[00:11.169]Fall too far to be wise and I know that I try but I-
[00:16.537]Fall too far to be wise and I know that I try but I
[00:21.295]Look, let me show you behind the scene
[00:24.535]Behind the glitz and the glamour and all the lights you see
[00:27.809]Behind the rumours on the life I lead
[00:30.175]Let me talk to the people like it's the mic in me
[00:32.731]The truth is I got really bad anxiety
[00:35.286]I'm on the motorway, cryin' in the driver's seat
[00:38.592]I don't even know where I'm goin'
[00:39.988]I got love, but I don't know how to show it, is this life?
[00:43.364]When you feel like givin' up, know you're close
[00:46.250]I been sayin' the least and knowin' the most
[00:48.930]I've had ups and downs, but the highest of the highs
[00:51.503]Never last for as long as the lowest of lows
[00:55.373]Survivor's guilt
[00:57.344]I feel the worst at my happiest
[00:58.842]'Cause I miss all my n!ggas that couldn't be in this life I built
[01:02.230]But that's the type of sh!t that only I can feel
[01:05.533]Gettin' me in the mood
[01:07.570]My ex has got ivory skin
[01:09.370]Which is funny 'cause it's really the elephant in the room
[01:12.320]Is that enough reason to bury me in a tomb?
[01:15.205]I fell in love with an Albanian, I know it's mad
[01:17.977]We're not together, 'cause her family would hold us back
[01:20.365]I saw the red flags, I wouldn't want my child to grow in that
[01:23.623]Rum and Red Bull, it's a culture clash (Fxckin' hell)
[01:28.516]I don't wanna let life tear us apart
[01:30.673]I see the Internet gossip and it wears on my heart
[01:33.282]I fxck with her, she was there from the start
[01:35.509]I'm seein' them laugh at me, cah I'm vulnerable
[01:39.894]Ain't that the sh!t that rappers' supposed to do?
[01:41.875]I'd rather rap about arguin' with my girl than fxckin' your girl
[01:45.143]But I don't mind, because the both are true
[01:48.366]Ignorin' my messages, these times I know she on her—
[01:52.567]Worst part is I wouldn't even do the same
[01:55.040]Hate it or love it, you gotta charge it to the game
[01:58.627](Gotta charge it to the)
[02:00.406]Heavy is the head, but don't play with my heart
[02:02.612]I feel like a footballer when I'm makin' my art
[02:05.357]Through ball, how I'm managin' the weight of the past
[02:07.888]I felt so much pain that I got favorite scars
[02:10.602]And my house got wings like my favorite cars
[02:13.334]And the milly rock my favorite dance
[02:15.408]You can call it what you want it, but I got it off of takin' a chance
[02:18.631]I didn't take an advance
[02:21.393]Fame comes with a price, you can't pay in advance
[02:24.090]For six long years, I've been playin' my part
[02:26.627]Like a freak in a circus when they're makin' them dance
[02:29.290]I got nights where it's light and I got days where it's dark
[02:31.919]And the waters that I swim in, it ain't safe for the sharks
[02:34.655]He a gangster, but the stress gonna take him apart
[02:37.130]I'm with the n!ggas that I claimed from the start
[02:39.204]I see you n!ggas changin', they didn't make it
[02:42.793]It's a shame it takes fallin' to your death
[02:44.726]For a person to appreciate fully the gravity of the situation
[02:48.842]But that's just irony at its finest
[02:51.793]Black women, I just wanna say I'm sorry
[02:53.988]I done a lot of dumb sh!t, I won't lie to you
[02:56.644]I wanna be a voice for you, be a light for you
[02:59.261]I know I haven't done enough, I wanna try for you
[03:02.410]Wanna be on the frontline for you
[03:04.647]Campaign for you, make change for you
[03:07.886]I just wanna help in any way
[03:10.122]Bein' genuine, I think about it every day
[03:13.103]Tour life, travellin' every day
[03:15.527]Nerves paralysing when you get to stage
[03:17.764]You feel love for an hour, and then it gets to fade
[03:20.741]Imagine what that does to your mental state
[03:23.201]Imagine bein' a millionaire at a tender age
[03:26.305]You don't even know whether to spend or save
[03:28.564]My mum had to grow up fast, she expects the same
[03:31.334]I was twenty with a mortgage and rent to pay
[03:35.295]So what's happenin'? I got guerillas all around me, allow me
[03:39.192]Don't get grabbed in a party or lack in it
[03:41.512]You'll die for a whine like Joffrey Baratheon
[03:44.884]Pattern 'em
[03:46.565]The government ain't gonna help with all the issues that I'm tacklin'
[03:50.083]The way you talk about politics is bafflin'
[03:52.224]I wouldn't even trust my own shadow in a cabinet
[03:54.829]Cabbin’ it can't drive no more
[03:58.115]I been lookin' for the answers, sure that I'll find 'em
[04:00.656]I don't judge an accent but the story behind it
[04:03.629]We all know loss, but there's glory behind it
[04:06.336]I'ma make a film for my mum
[04:07.821]And tell her, "Tell to the world this album is just the soundtrack"
[04:11.152]Look at her story in a year in her life
[04:13.143]And tell me if it doesn't bring a fxckin' tear to your eyes
[04:15.823]In this together
[04:16.872](Outro: Jorja Smith)
[04:17.065]I thought wishin' wouldn't hurt, but take it over
[04:21.527]I’m done holdin’ at your lies
[04:24.972]So knowin' that it weren’t for any one thing
[04:29.041]You know you love fast and I know you want to stay
[04:31.703]In the clouds, my head’s sippin' up
[04:34.161]Let the other try, said I don’t wanna try
[04:38.205]I thought wishin' wouldn't hurt, but take it over
[04:42.906]I’m done holdin’ at your lies
[04:46.293]So knowin' that it weren’t for any one thing
[04:50.150]You know you love fast and I know you want to stay
[04:53.011]In the clouds, my head’s sippin' up
[04:55.645]Let the other try, I don’t wanna try
[04:58.421](Outro: Daniel Kaluuya)
[04:59.924]What I've realised
[05:01.259]What I realised 'bout who I am
[05:03.042]Is that, you're kinda taught
[05:08.181]You're taught to die for what you stand for, you feel me?
[05:11.497]But I realise I'm here to live for what I stand for
[05:14.355]'Cause I wanna see it, bro, I wanna enjoy it, bro
[05:18.000]I wanna see what I feel, like I am, you know what I'm sayin'?
[05:22.719]Out there, while I'm here, and that's that, bro
[05:26.341]But, yeah, link up soon my guy, you know how it is
[05:28.468]Hustle o’clock bruv, shine on em