The Feel Good Song of the Year歌词

I never thought the day
would come when I
Would be the poison
in the pen I use to write
You said you were alone
in somewhat of a nervous tone
I guess it was the blank look
on your face that was easy to replace
So then I went and drank myself
into an idiot all through the night
Recounting all my paranoid and
selfish thoughts but I was right
I made a space for you inside my soul
And let my feelings kill
the part that I control
So part of you was me,
neglectful maybe cold it seemed
Despite having the wounds
we both imbibe, the scars are
Somewhere we can't hide
I then stayed up for two more years
just thinking of the sacrifice you made
Indifferent to the reason
so apparent in the pain
I polished off another drink and
taught myself to numb and drift away
For one more night so
I could justify the day
So now I entertain the thought
of going on all alone
But you are all the life
I've ever known
I swear one day I'll get it back
something that is already dead and gone
Again i see the trumpet player
looking for his song
Don't worry I won't follow you,
that part of me is learning to let got
What was a space is like
a cancer in my soul