[00:00.00] 作词 : Chelsea Cutler/Kevin White
[00:01.00] 作曲 : Chelsea Cutler/Kevin White
[00:08.83]Skin and bones stomach aches
[00:12.23]Lucid dreams hold my breath
[00:14.20]When I'm wide awake
[00:16.61]Connecticut dissociate
[00:20.01]Maybe I should buy a house
[00:21.94]In a town upstate
[00:23.64]If I could I'd wake myself up
[00:27.31]When I am somebody that I'm proud of
[00:33.45]I'm getting undressed for my lover
[00:35.75]And praying she don't hate all my skin like I do
[00:41.14]I'm reading books and drinking coffee
[00:43.72]Stepping on a scale I keep in the bathroom
[00:47.46]The water goes downhill and still
[00:50.38]I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
[00:55.35]And I don't feel alive no I don't feel alive
[01:05.15]Telehealth TV episodes
[01:08.44]Swallow seeds but the fruit never seems to grow
[01:12.71]Validate what I know
[01:16.21]What I believe in and everywhere I wanna go
[01:19.73]If I could I'd wake myself up
[01:23.46]When I am somebody that I'm proud of
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[01:29.44]I'm paying three different psychologists
[01:32.23]Trying to remember who I told what story to
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[01:37.15]I'm writing feelings in a journal
[01:39.46]Cuz' that's what people who have their **** together seem to do
[01:43.59]The water goes downhill and still
[01:46.44]I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
[01:51.46]And I don't feel alive no I don't feel alive
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[02:00.39]I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my
[02:07.88]I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my lungs
[02:15.88]I'm learning how to set my boundaries
[02:18.72]How to have compassion for myself and for my mind
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[02:23.65]I'm turning off my ******* cell phone
[02:26.34]And trying to have honest conversations in real life
[02:30.23]The water goes downhill and still
[02:32.78]I swim against the current with two arms that cannot fly
[02:37.91]And I don't feel alive no I don't feel alive
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[02:46.74]I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my
[02:54.41]I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my
[03:02.17]I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my
[03:09.81]I keep coming up for air and ending up with water in my lungs