[00:00.000] 作词 : Jermaine Cole [00:01.000] 作曲 : Jermaine Cole [00:07.533]For your eyes only, for your eyes only [00:19.826](for your eyes) [00:24.588]Hey [00:25.033]*****s be dying on the daily [00:26.745]It seems my dreams faded for far too long, the consequences deadly [00:31.051]Can't visualize myself as nothing but a criminal [00:33.713]Control the block, serving up rocks and stay subliminal [00:37.057]Cause young *****s is hard headed, they letting off [00:40.169]Full of adrenaline, ignorant to what death can cause [00:43.371]Ain't no coming back, family dressed in black [00:46.036]Plus it's hot now, the cops outside it's hard to flip a pack [00:49.807]And my daughter gotta eat, her mama be stressing me [00:52.749]Like I ain't the one who put them Jays on her feet [00:55.691]Like I ain't out in the field like that [00:58.034]I might be low for the moment but I will bounce back [01:00.967]Despite the charges, back to the wall I fight regardless, Screaming "***** the law", my life is lawless [01:06.244]That's what you call it [01:07.371]Ain't got to be no psychic to see this is like the farthest thing from heaven [01:10.586]This is hell and I don't mean that hyperbolic [01:13.696]I try to find employment even if it’s wiping toilets [01:16.925]But these felonies be making life the hardest [01:19.271]Resisting the temptation to run up and swipe a wallet [01:22.184]Or run up on your yard, snatch your daughter bike and pawn it [01:25.356]That's why I write this sonnet [01:26.812]If the pressure get too much for me to take and I break [01:29.807]Play this tape for my daughter and let her know my life is on it [01:34.747]Let her know my life is on it [01:36.632](For your eyes) [01:38.076]Let her know my life is on [01:39.017]For your eyes only [01:40.710]For your eyes do you understand [01:42.852]For your eyes do you understand me [01:45.880]For your eyes do you understand [01:48.450]For your eyes do you understand me [01:52.096]For your eyes do you understand [01:54.758]For your eyes do you understand me [01:58.145]For your eyes do you understand [02:01.108]For your eyes do you understand me [02:02.643]You're probably grown now so this song'll hit you [02:04.965]If you're hearing this unfortunately means that I'm no longer with you [02:08.798]In the physical, not even sure if I believe in God [02:12.066]But because you still alive [02:13.355]He got me praying that the spiritual is real [02:16.089]So I can be a part of you still, my pops was killed too [02:19.544]So I know how part of you feels [02:21.097]Maybe you hate me, maybe you miss me, maybe you spite me [02:24.458]Life goes in cycles, maybe you'll date a ***** just like me [02:27.421]I hope not, I'm tired of **** spots [02:29.925]And fiends that smoke rocks, I've seen far too many *****s hopes rot [02:33.738]I'm writing this because me and the devil had a dance [02:36.814]Now I see death around the corner, apologizing in advance [02:40.077]Don't know if I ever had a chance [02:42.185]At a glance I'm a failure, addicted to pu*****ng paraphernalia [02:45.929]But Daddy had dreams once, my eyes had a gleam once [02:49.145]Innocence disappeared by the age of eight years [02:52.067]My Pops shot up, drug related [02:54.232]Mama addicted [02:55.108]So Granny raised me in projects where thugs was hanging [02:58.046]Blood was staining the concrete [03:00.070]Older *****s I loved talked like they was above maintaining a time sheet [03:03.503]That slow money, picked up the family business [03:06.946]By the age of thirteen, six years later was handed sentence [03:10.608]Round the same time is when you came in this world [03:13.372]Me and your mama thinking, what the ***** we naming this girl? [03:16.411]I told her Nina, the prettiest name that I could think of [03:19.799]For the prettiest thing my eyes had ever seen [03:23.223]I was nineteen, took me two felonies to see the trap, this crooked ass system set for me [03:28.514]And now I fear it's too late for me to ever be the one that set examples that was never set for me [03:34.581]I'm living fast, but not fast enough cause karma keeps on catching up to me [03:38.587]And if my past becomes the death of me, I hope you understand [03:42.985]For your eyes do you understand [03:45.792]For your eyes do you understand me [03:48.923]For your eyes do you understand [03:51.920]For your eyes do you understand me [03:55.042]For your eyes do you understand [03:57.758]For your eyes do you understand me [04:01.265]For your eyes do you understand [04:04.192]For your eyes do you understand me [04:05.951]It's several ways I could've went out, too many to count [04:07.786]Was it the trigger happy crackers that the badges give clout [04:11.827]Was it the young *****s, blasting frustrated cause the cash running out [04:15.777]*****s don't know how to act in a drought [04:18.144]See baby girl I realized, my definition of a real ***** was skewed [04:22.211]My views misshaped by new mixtapes [04:24.594]That confirmed the *****t I learned in the streets was true [04:27.270]That real *****s don't speak when they beef with you [04:30.437]They just pull up on your street, let the heat at you [04:33.410]And if a real ***** hungry he gon' eat your food [04:36.477]I was a fool, spent all my time ducking school, ducking cops [04:39.871]Ducking rules, hugging blocks that don't love you [04:42.885]I pray you find a ***** with goals and point of views [04:45.945]Much broader than the corner, if not it's gon' corner you [04:48.952]Into a box, where your son don't even know his pops [04:52.099]And the cyclical nature of doing time continues [04:55.169]My worst fear is one day that you come home from school [04:58.244]and see your father face while hearing 'bout tragedy on news [05:01.346]I got the strangest feeling your Daddy gonna lose his life soon [05:04.639]And sadly if you're listening now it must mean it's true [05:07.547]But maybe there's a chance that it's not [05:09.667]And this album remains locked in a hard drive like valuable jewels [05:13.417]And I can teach you this in person like I'm teaching you to tie your own shoes [05:17.056]I love you and I hope to God I don't lose you [05:19.775]For your eyes only [05:21.048]For your eyes [05:22.740]For your eyes only [05:32.296]For your eyes [05:35.073]For your eyes only [05:40.342]For your eyes do you understand [06:09.299]One day your daddy called me, told me he had a funny feeling [06:12.647]What he'd been dealing with lately, he wasn't telling [06:15.321]I tried to pick his brains, still he wasn't revealing [06:18.103]But I could feel the sense of panic in his voice and it was chilling [06:21.347]He said "Jermaine, I knew you since we was children I never asked for nothing [06:23.962]When times was hard I never had discussions with you begging you to help me [06:29.501]I dealt with the repercussions of my actions [06:31.713]I know you tried to steer me 'way from that *****t [06:33.867]But that *****t was in my blood, you know my life [06:36.798]I know your Momma *****, send my love [06:38.665]In case I never get a chance to speak again [06:41.301]I won't forget the weekends spent sleeping at your crib [06:43.960]That's the way I wished my family lived [06:45.997]But my granny crib was in the 'jects [06:48.032]I had to interject like, "***** what you talking 'bout? ***** is you getting at?" [06:51.991]He said "Listen, I got no time to dive into descriptions [06:55.273]But I've been having premonitions, just call it visions from the other side [06:59.305]I got a feeling I won't see tomorrow, like the time I'm living on is borrowed [07:04.257]With that said the only thing I'm proud to say I was a father [07:07.447]Write my story down and if I pass go play it for my daughter when she ready [07:12.200]And so I'm leaving you this record for your eyes only, don't you ever scratch or disrespect it [07:14.988]This perspective is a real one, another lost Ville son [07:20.186]I dedicate these words to you and all the other children [07:22.972]Affected by the mass incarceration in this nation [07:26.333]That sent your pops to prison when he needed education [07:29.128]Sometimes I think this segregation would've done us better [07:32.130]Although I know that means I would never be brought into this world [07:35.906]'cuz my daddy was so thrilled when he found him a white girl [07:38.941]to take back to Jonesborough with'lil Zach and Cole World barely one years old, [07:42.880]now it's thirty years later making sure the story's told [07:46.731]Girl your daddy was a real *****, not 'cos he was cold [07:49.830]Not because he was the first to get some ***** twelve years old [07:52.723]Not because he used to come through in the Caddy on some vogues [07:55.873]Not because he went from bagging up them grams to serving O's [07:58.909]Nah your daddy was a real *****, not 'cos he was hard [08:02.038]Not because he lived a life of crime and sat behind some bars [08:04.939]Not because he screamed ***** the law, although that was true [08:08.461]Your daddy was a real ***** 'cuz he loved you" [08:11.403]For your eyes only [08:49.585] [08:49.896]