[00:00.000] 作词 : Jarad Higgins/Marshall Mathers
[00:00.184] 作曲 : Jarad Higgins/Marshall Mathers
[00:00.368] I think it was–, I took my first Vicodin
[00:02.022] It was just like, this feeling of "Ahh"
[00:05.505] You know, like everything was not only mellow
[00:08.411] But didn't feel any pain
[00:10.515] They just didn't–, it just kind of numbed things
[00:12.883] I don't know at what point exactly it started to be a problem
[00:16.930] I just remember likin' it more and more
[00:20.255] People try to tell me that I had a problem
[00:22.677] I would say "Get that ****in' person out of here
[00:24.545] I can't believe they said that shit to me
[00:25.956] They know nothin' about my ****in' life
[00:27.463] Are they out of their ****in' mind?"
[00:29.045] I'm not out there shootin' ******
[00:30.241] I'm not out there ****in', you know
[00:32.112] Puttin' coke up my nose, I'm not smokin' crack
[00:34.854] You're struggling with the argument of
[00:37.624] "Do you have a problem
[00:38.476] Or do you not have a problem?
[00:39.689] Can you control it, or can you not?"
[00:41.282] And I literally thought I could control it
[00:43.402] You're taking things that people are giving you that
[00:46.553] You don't even know what the **** they are
[00:48.625] They look like a pill, and they look–
[00:50.584] They're shaped like something that you take
[00:53.504] So you take it, you know
[00:56.116] Xanax, Valium, tomato-tomato
[00:58.766] You know what I mean? It's th– the same thing
[01:00.908] It's all in the same family, **** it, take it
[01:03.007] Had I had gotten to the hospital about two hours later
[01:06.526] I would've died
[01:07.318] My organs were shutting down, my liver, kidneys, everything
[01:10.507] They were gonna have to put me on dialysis
[01:11.916] They didn't think I was gonna make it
[01:13.432] My bottom was gonna be death, within a month, I had relapsed
[01:18.316] And shot right back up too, insane amount of pills that I was taking
[01:21.540] I remember just walking around my house and thinking every single day
[01:25.529] Like "I'm gonna ****ing die", like, I'm– I'm looking at my kids
[01:29.329] And I need to be here for this
[01:30.950] Coming off of everything
[01:32.415] I literally was up twenty-four hours a day for three weeks straight
[01:36.230] And I mean not sleeping, not even nodding off for a ****ing minute
[01:42.065] Like, I was literally just up, like, looking at the TV
[01:46.365] I had to regain motor skills, I had to regain talking skills
[01:50.379] It's been a– a learning process, like, it's been, I'm growing
[01:54.380] I just couldn't believe that anybody could ever be naturally happy
[01:57.739] Or naturally function, or be just enjoying life in general, without being on something
[02:03.789] So, I would say that t– to anybody that I– it does get better, you know? It just– it does