[00:00.168]You want what for Christmas?! Hell no
[00:13.536]What you mean 'this is all we got'?
[00:20.745]That's it
[00:21.795]It's Christmas time in the Montgomery home
[00:25.781]Daddy's actin' all crazy again
[00:29.508]Momma got herself a bloody nose
[00:33.236]Daddy slapped her in the face again
[00:36.491]Why they always gotta fight so much? Damn, Momma face swole
[00:40.605]Me and my bros in a panic state
[00:42.173]If that's the case yo, I can't just stay around this
[00:45.189]Everything was fine, we just had dinner, we got all the He-Mans
[00:47.994]Battle Cat, Adam and Cringer, even Castle Greyskull and Snake Mountain
[00:52.440]Now we sit and listen to y'all argue about how y'all planned this day
[00:55.238]And y'all just admitted to us Santa fake so Kid Vishis just ran away poutin'
[00:59.105]Now I gotta go and console him, he wasn't nothin' but a spoiled little boy then
[01:03.070]Little naive with an innocent cry, all he ever wanted to do was fit in with us
[01:07.062]And y'all bought him a pair of fake Timberlands and put 'em in a real Timberland box
[01:10.193]I never forget them boots, they was called Rugged Outbacks
[01:12.977]Momma went and found them at Payless and made us promise not to say nothin'
[01:17.033]Then Pop came in like he ain't know nothin' about it
[01:19.138]Like, "Judy you gon' send that boy out in public like that?"
[01:21.154]"He'll be just fine, these kids ain't 'bout to be
[01:23.700]Looking down at his feet for no tree", and she really meant that
[01:26.598]Meanwhile, this little arrogant ***** called himself stuntin' on me and Greg with him
[01:30.168]Talkin' about, "Where your Timbs at?"
[01:31.153]But he was too young to detect sarcasm so we was like, "*****, where yo' Timbs at?"
[01:35.429]It's Thanksgiving in the Montgomery home
[01:39.547]Greg just came in here drunk again
[01:43.330]Now momma tryna cover for him
[01:46.946]She afraid my daddy gon' punch him again
[01:50.103]Why you gotta get drunk so much? Damn!
[01:52.997]I wish you would just stay where you was at
[01:55.031]Instead of coming home all rude and disrespectin' all our father's rules and ****, man
[01:59.542]The mood done switched me and Vishis playing Connect Four
[02:02.646]Our favorite movie just came on the tube and it's ironic it's "Bloodsport"
[02:05.936]And I'm looking at Frank Dux and ****, thinkin' you should split
[02:08.674]Before Daddy come down these stairs of this ba*****t and see you wasted
[02:11.933]But he just cut me off like, "That ***** ain't gon' do ****"
[02:16.300]But the truth is this, he couldn't whoop my dad even if he was sober
[02:19.362]I know cause he tried once
[02:20.354]Ended up unconscious, a broke arm and a tooth was chipped
[02:23.239]My big bro got a lot of emotional problems, he feel that we was all abused as kids
[02:27.122]He saw momma get dragged down all kinds of stairs like a ragdoll when he was two
[02:30.918]And this is back when Daddy used to sniff *******, poor thang
[02:33.747]He had to be subjected to this when he gets drunk, he gets to losing it
[02:36.496]He gets the illusion that he gon' protect us all from the Big Bad Wolf
[02:40.146]Stand up to him and prove some ****
[02:41.926]But all he really doing is stressing mom out
[02:43.762]Got her goin', "Boy, you know your daddy up there asleep
[02:46.134]The food is ready, why don't you stop
[02:47.832]Making all this noise and let him stay 'sleep?"
[02:49.747]The turkey's done in the Montgomery home
[02:53.432]Dad has just been awakened again (uh-oh)
[02:57.231]Greg is making all kinds of noise
[03:00.912]Daddy's on his way angry again
[03:03.589]"Who is that making all that God damn noise?" (not me)
[03:07.146]"Greggy, get up here! You been out there drinking again?
[03:11.814]What the **** I tell you about coming in my house with this disrespectful ****?
[03:15.158]***** where the **** you done been?"
[03:16.314]I'm thinking to myself "Greg please don't say nothin' stupid, man"
[03:19.020]Every time my daddy in his drawers and he standing in the hallway
[03:21.129]Mad at somebody, I swear to God he got the same strength as Superman
[03:23.948]My brother turned around and just walks in the kitchen
[03:26.701]Without even givin' an answer with his back to him like, "I ain't gotta talk to you *****"
[03:30.367]"*****, you don't hear me talking to you?"
[03:31.923]Next thing my brother did is something that when it comes to my father is something you just don't do
[03:35.939]He looked him right in his eyes and he asked him
[03:38.352]"What the **** is you gon' do?" (Mm, mm, mm)
[03:40.771]My father hit him so hard his body hit the stove
[03:42.834]The oven door hit the ******* floor
[03:44.515]The turkey fell out the oven whole and landed near the stairs
[03:47.008]Now Daddy standing over Greg
[03:48.913]Talkin' 'bout, "*****, you ain't hurt! Get up, get up!"
[03:51.811]And here come Vish' talkin' 'bout, "Dad, I don't think he gon' get up"
[03:54.396]Then momma went damn near hysterical
[03:56.167]She called the police, the police came
[03:57.751]Neighbors is all in the street
[03:58.837]Watching the cops takin' my father out in handcuffs
[04:01.158]Damn, man that **** was real embarassing
[04:02.523]To all my friends I grew up with, who grew up fatherless
[04:05.602]I know through me you live vicariously
[04:07.379]I want you to know that we ain't know better than you and yours
[04:09.919]We all needed therapy
[04:11.141]We care about each other more
[04:12.620]Than we care about if anybody understands us
[04:14.425]What I'm tryin' say is "**** you!"
[04:16.265]And Happy Holidays from the Montgomery family
[04:19.361]Every man reaches that point in life
[04:22.918]Where he don't want to make excuses no more more
[04:26.662]Life took me on a rollercoaster ride
[04:29.641]I've been up, I've been down, all the ribbons and my daddy game
[04:33.267]Took me on highs
[04:36.084]Turned around and then took me on lows (that's how the story goes)
[04:39.713]Ohh, then I think about it
[04:43.435]I use that **** as fuel
[04:47.261]Then I changed it into power, now can't you feel it?
[04:51.695]Can't you feel it?
[04:54.048]That I'm a grown man with power, yeah, let me hear you say "yeah"
[04:58.651]If you was raised in a strict home like me, felt alone like me
[05:02.211]And it gave you power, ooohh
[05:06.604]You can do it too, just look at me
[05:08.736]See I'm a grown man with power, yeah, everybody say "yeah"
[05:13.245]If you don't know the meaning of abusive
[05:15.180]You've been through so much ain't nothing nobody can do to you
[05:17.787]Now can't you feel it? I'm a runaway
[05:22.821]This is how I became, a grown man with power
[05:26.005]Ooohh, you can do it too, if I can do it
[05:30.778]Use this power, I was a runaway, I was a runaway
[05:36.039]There ain't nothing none of you can do to me, do to me
[05:41.451]When you were a child growing up with Grandad and Granny
[05:45.408]Did you really feel like Grandad was a good father to you?
[05:50.380]Absolutely, absolutely
[05:52.435]All my friend's daddies was walking out on them left and right
[05:55.868]Y'know he never left us, he was always there for us
[05:58.900]Y'know there were a lot of things that happened that I didn't understand
[06:01.666]Maybe I might not have answered the question the same way when I was a teenager
[06:05.189]But I understand and appreciate him so much more now as a man
[06:10.604]Y'know 'cause he taught me respect and discipline
[06:13.680]And consequences for your acts, so yeah, of course
[06:18.314]Do you think his approach as a father
[06:21.708]Really shaped the type of father that you are today
[06:25.204]Or do you in some ways think it had negatives to it
[06:29.087]And if so, what kind of negative traits
[06:32.035]Do you try to avoid having as a father right now, to me?
[06:40.086](When you have your own, you'll understand)